This week has been for me one of those life passages, life-enhancing, life-reflecting kind of weeks. OK, so what IS that? Well, it's where my mind gets all entrapped and enraptured in these preponderous (word?) details and rememberances (word?), and new discoveries, and little victories, and questioning changes, and chance meetings--and then culminates in my just sittin' back with numerous, very large cups of coffee and trying to make some sense out of it all.
And how do I go about doing this? Well, I get it all packaged a bit more tidily in my mind, and savor all the delectable little nuances that various situations provided, and tumble the fragmented thoughts and perspectives over and around in my boggled brain until they become just the perfected, significant memories they are meant to be for the rest of my life.
And not that they'll always remain in this pristine, easily-recollected state, but that they have been investigated and savored and stored is the important part. It's all about my selective interest in living my life in the moment and simple pleasures and stages God has so blessed me with. When I started my Romantic Mom endeavor 5 or so years ago, I was a younger mom with 3 babies. I was a fairly new Christian still in a fog trying to find my way. My husband and I were newly married and still trying to figure how on earth we were supposed to live out our version of marital bliss.
And now I'm a middle-aged mom with youngsters more or less leaving the baby stages. Our twins will be turning 9 years old next month--further than they've ever been from baby-hood. My hubby and I have had enough adventures and time to find our ability to be who we are in our own marital comfort-zone. We're living out our dream of the homey, family-centered, country life. Just in this last week or so I've launched a website and last night had dinner with a beautiful family through that connection that I didn't even know existed last Sat. and that we might never have even met. I spent a lovely couple of hours at the park with some moms in my homeschool group that I've known now for at least a couple of years or more. As I left the park it occurred to me that those friendships have developed in such a casually sweet, unhurried way and with the older kiddos seeming so BIG now and new wee ones who have come along.
And I pretty much just stand in amazement that my children actually ASK ME to take these kinds of photos of them! That they run out and pick flowers and perch on the railing for a picture and my only job is to grab the camera! When this kind of whimsical set-up doesn't even dawn on me! That children overall are just so intrinsically romantic to the core and it's so effortless for them--it all just comes flowing forth! I only try to be romantic and it comes with no small effort. I've begun to see that all these things that looked so scary and formidable in the past were actually much easier and non-catastrophic than I thought they surely would be. This life passage-enhancing-reflective week has made me realize that I have mellowed a bit and that with this mellowing there's a slight rosy hue forming over the bi-focals I'll surely be needing soon!